An RM10 Story...

Today, I went to celebrate a birthday party of a friend of mine at a restaurant named Kentucky Fried Chicken at town. In the afternoon earlier, my friends and I went to buy a cake for our birthday girl. We went out without telling her as it was our plan to make a surprise for her. My friend picked me up from my home and I was sneaking out without letting anyone knows that I was going out with my friends, otherwise, there would be so much to explain and I am bad with explaining things. 

I waited patiently for her to arrive and then, I went downstairs. It wasn't a sneaking out action anymore as everyone was in the living room. They saw me but I didn't look at them, pretending that I was so busy to get ready to go out. I thought that they would ask me where I was going, at least somebody would, but unexpectedly, no one did. So, it was a great chance to grab! My mom saw me too and she told me not to go back home late. I said okay.

My friend and I rode a motorcycle, and went to our other friend's place. She was shocked to see us in front of her house gate. It wasn't to happen as planned as we couldn't text messages via our cell phones, to arrange our planning. There was a network problem occurred that day. So, we discussed outside her house. We were facing difficulties to decide whether to buy the cake tomorrow or the next day as our birthday girl hadn't confirm us yet whether she could go out tomorrow or not besides, the network was not at it's best that day and hence we couldn't contact her further. So then, what are we going to do now? My friend asked. Let's go buy a birthday present for her. But, FRANNY, you bought it already right? I did, I bought three birthday presents for each of my three best friends when I went to peninsular during study week. So, I nodded.

Lucky me that I was ready with the present already as that afternoon, I only brought an RM10 note. It wasn't a brought by purpose actually, I had only RM10 in my pocket as if I said that I only brought an RM10 note, it meant that I didn't bring the rest cash of my money I had and that was actually wrong. I didn't have the rest of the money. I only had RM10, 10 solid, and we were going to buy a cake on that day and if I hadn't purchase the present yet, I wouldn't have any money to buy one for her. 

As as as we arrived at a gift shop, we bumped into my sister, holding my nephew in her car. I went to say hi to her a while and asked for a little pocket money. Unlucky me, as she said that she didn't have small notes at that time. I said It's okay with a smile and waved a bye bye wave to my nephew.

We entered the gift shop. It wasn't easy, to pick which was the best gift to be given to her. That was how my friend felt. I knew, as I faced that too when I was making a choice to pick the best birthday presents for them at the time I was in peninsular. Most of my colleges were envy of me as I went to have a trip to peninsular assuming the study week holiday as if it was a school holiday. My sister insisted me to go, so I joined her seemed she offered to sponsor me.

While my friends wandered around the shop, looking for the gifts, I went to clothes section. That was the only section that I loved to go if I went out to shop. I like to purchase cute dresses. When I was in college, I purchased many new dresses and I was facing difficulties during the time to pack up my things to go back to my hometown for a semester break. My luggage was heavier than it was before, I mean, during the time I registered on the early semester.

I found one cute shirt of course and when I looked at its price tag, I was shocked a little as it was written there, it cost only RM10. It was cheap actually as most of the dresses I bought during last semester cost at least RM20 plus each. I loved that shirt! I wished to have it, the blue one! But, once again, I didn't have enough money. If I spent my only RM10 which I had in my teddy bear purse on that shirt, what was I going to use to purchase the cake later? So, I stepped away from that shirt, saying One day, I will have you! You'll see! You'll be mine! I went to my friend and it seemed that she had picked a gift for our birthday friend. She bought her a cute pinkish shirt and I loved that shirt too.

While we were waiting for a worker to wrap the gift, we gathered and continued our discussion on our planning to celebrate my friend's birthday. Suddenly, my friend suggested to have the party at that night, but it depended on whether our birthday friend could make it or not. It seemed that the next day everyone were busy and could not make it either. So, it was hard to celebrate it the next day. My other friend went downstairs to make a call to ask our birthday girl, using the public phone as it was the only way to reach her since the network was still down. 

Our birthday girl agreed. She said that she would pick us up using her car by 7.30pm and the clock at that time was pass 6.45pm. We didn't have much time. We rushed to the cake house and I didn't have the time to consider whether I had enough money to spend on that day or not. I suggested them to go to a cake house which I had been to a few days before, on the day my sister and I went to buy a cake to celebrate my other sister's birthday. The cake house had many types of cake on display. So, we picked a chocolate cake and it cost RM36. It was quiet expensive as the cake of the same size which my sister and I purchased only cost RM24. Wondered if the cake we picked tasted even tastier.  

Since there were three of us, we shared our money and divided into three. So, each of us had to contribute RM12 each. I pulled out my RM10 and I said honestly to my friend I only have this and pointed the money to them. They said it was okay and my friend helped me to pay extra. Wondered if that okay really meant okay. But, it wasn't my friend who helped me to pay extra money whom I doubted. It was me I doubted. Seriously, I wasn't okay with that...it was humiliating that I did not afford to pull out another RM2 from my purse to make a full contribution/payment. I knew, I was so sure that my friend said okay because she thought that I had no small amount of money, for an RM2 to give. She must be  thinking that I had only huge amount of money in my purse at that moment. She might think that I only had few pieces of RM50 or even RM100 in my purse. In fact, it was actually an RM10. Only a piece of red paper, valued RM10. Not RM50 or even worse RM100. I didn't explain any further, telling her that her assumption about my money was actually wrong. I didn't as I am bad in explaining things.

As we stepped out from the cake house, the time was 7.00pm. We had to go back home by that moment, to get us ready as our birthday friend was going to pick us up so soon. My friend and I who lived in the same village said bye to my friend who lived near town. I rode the motorcycle with her back and on our way back, I suddenly thought of something. I was at that moment had no money left in my purse and the party which was supposed to be held the next day was shifted to that night. What was I going to use to purchase my meal? I had no cash left...

As I arrived home, I rushed into my room, grabbed my towel and went to the bathroom. I took a bath. While pouring the water through my body, I was thinking of a way to have another RM10 to spend later. I needed not much. Only RM10. The only one whom I could think of was my mother. I made up my mind that I wanted to ask her for an RM10. So, I quickly finish myself with my bath and went to wear clean clothes. Before asking that RM10 money from my mother, I had to wrap my gift to be given my friend first as I hadn't wrap it yet.

I was done with wrapping in a few minutes and as I was about to put a nice ribbon on its outside, I heard a car engine stopped in front of my house. My birthday friend had arrived to pick me up. I couldn't budget my time precisely as she used to text me first before she was on her way to pick us up. This time she didn't. She just couldn't as the network wasn't okay yet. She couldn't text me like she always did and she couldn't make a phone call via her cell phone either. I just knew it as my cell phone didn't ring at all and I didn't receive any messages from her either but I was sure that she did try to reach me. Oh, how I was getting mad at the network that evening.

I threw away the ribbon as I didn't have time to put it on my gift. I quickly put it into my bag and ran downstairs. I opened the window pan to double check that it was her waiting me outside. It was really her, even if I didn't see her face clearly through the dark, I recognized enough with her white car. A bit old already. I closed the window pan, turned to my mother who was sitting at the couch, keeping an eye to my nephew. It was the climax of the story! It was time! She knew that my friend was waiting for me outside and I was in rush. I approached her and opened my mouth. Can I have an RM10? I said it! Even if I said it out with a cute voice and a smiling face, in just a few words but I was suddenly felt that it wasn't as simple as I thought it would be. She got up slowly after she asked me back whether I had spent the balance of money she gave me a few days ago. I remembered about that RM10 that I spent to buy the cake in the evening. I answered her with a guilty voice, I spent it all already.

She went into her room. As she was getting up, lifting her old body, I was given the time to look at her face. The air seemed to be suddenly stunted. The time was seemed to be slower down by somebody. As seemed I was asked to see and looked through her face at that time, after I asked her for an RM10. She looked a little sad, a little disappointed. She showed me a hard expression which could touch anyone's heart when they saw it. I could see through her that she was actually didn't have much money to give. But, she was still getting up, going into her room to get RM10 for me. She went out with a worn out RM10 red paper. I wanted to cry, but I couldn't do that. I said Thank you! with still, trying my best to draw her a smiling face before stepping out of the house.  

I entered my friend's car and went to KFC to celebrate her birthday after picking the rests up. I ordered a set of snack plate as it only cost RM8.90. I pulled out my worn out RM10. I pushed it slowly down the table and said to myself, Mom, one day, I will give you back this money but followed by many and many more money! You'll see! I enjoyed the celebration and I loved the cake as it really tested so good.

I went back home, and before calling it as a day, I sat on my bed before closing my eyes for bed. I cried, thinking of each single thing that I faced that day. I loved my friends, all three of them, but they were differ from me. Sometimes, it was annoying to hear them saying that they refused to ask their family to send them extra pocket money when I heard them talking on the phone when we were in college. Their family wished to give them money, but they refused to accept them. But for my case, my brother was always be the one who make a phone call to home, asking for money and my family refused to send some as they had no money to give. I seldom did that as I assumed that if my brother had asked the money all, there would be no money left for me. Well, I thought it was okay as he needed it more than me...   

-The End-

Franny is in love with Spongebob Squarepants

Salah satu kartun English yang aku suka tengok ialah Spongebob Squarepants! Hahahaha...Kalau korang nak tau kartun ni berbeza daripada kartun-kartun yang lain. Jalan ceritanya, watak dan perwatakannya, settingnya, dan lain-lain semuanya mempunyai keunikan tersendiri yang membezakannya daripada kartun-kartun lain. Untuk pengetahuan, tema utama kartun ini ialah penceritaan kehidupan seharian watak utama iaitu Spongebob. Kalau nak diamati, watak Spongebob adalah satu watak yang paling unik. Walaupun dia diperbuat daripada span kuning, yang totally bukan hidupan laut, dia masih dapat hidup dan menyesuaikan diri di tempat yang bukan asal usulnya. Kalau la kita ditempatkan di tempat yang totally bukan asal-usul kita, dapatkah kita lakukan benda yang sama? Hermm, kena fikir dua kali nih...

Next, apa yang paling aku suka kat watak si span kuning yang comel ni ialah kesetiaan dia terhadap seorang sahabat, si tapak sulaiman merah jambu, Patrick. Walaupun kita nampak Patrick sangat bodoh, tapi kita tak pernah pun tengok scene Spongebob mengatakan sahabatnya itu bodoh walaupun dah tertunjuk terang dan nyata akan kebodohan Patrick tu? Spongebob sanggup melepaskan apa sahaja peluang untuk kebaikan dirinya semata-mata kerana peluang itu akan memisahkan dia dengan sahabatnya Patrick. Jika kita masukkan situasi ni dalam kehidupan realiti, mampukah kita berbuat seperti yang Spongebob buat untuk Patrick? Aku tak bermaksud la yang kita kena lepaskan cita-cita hanya kerana tak nak berpisah dengan kawan sekolah kita dulu. Hey! Come on la! Think out of box! Fikir yang tersirat. Sanggup ke kita berkorban apa sahaja untuk sahabat kita dan menerima dia seadanya? seperti Spongebob menerima Patrick yang tersangat-sangat jahil itu, dan sendainya ya, sejauh manakah kesanggupan kita itu, selama manakah ia akan bertahan? Renung-renungkanlah...

Segala yang ada kat Spongebob adalah semua yang boleh mengajar sesiapa sahaja yang menonton kartun ni, bagi yang tahu berfikir...perasan tak, yang Spongebob kerja kat kedai burger Crusty Crab tanpa risau pasal duit gaji? Bosnya, si ketam, Mr. Crab tu sangat kedekut. Super kedekut. Kadang-kadang dia bagi gaji kat Spongebob, kadang-kadang tak. Tapi Spongebob tak kisah pun gaji dia besar ke kecik ke, dia tetap bekerja dengan ikhlas. Maksudnya di sini, Spongebob melakukan kerjanya dengan ikhlas tanpa mengharapkan apa-apa balasan. Ermm...jom contohi Spongebob? Hehehe...

Hobi Spongebob ialah menangkap obor-obor. Bila aku tengok scene dia tangkap obor-obor, teringat lak zaman kanak-kanak dulu. Cuba lihat kat diri kita sekarang ni. Dah dewasa, dah kerja, sekolah tinggi, tapi adakah kita hargai setiap saat kita bernafas di muka bumi ini? Adakah kita hargai sekecil-kecil benda yang ada di sekeliling kita? 

Itu baru sikit je yang aku petikkan untuk renungan korang yang ada lam watak Spongebob. Sebenarnya ada banyak lagi, belum lagi watak-watak yang lain. Kadang-kadang aku hairan la, kenapa orang cakap bila seseorang yang dah besar panjang macam aku ni tengok kartun Spongebob, diorang seakan-akan mengatakan aku ni Tak matang langsung. Memalukan! Dah besar panjang pun masih gak tengok kartun...aku selamba je. Biarlah ape diorang nak cakap sebab sebenarnya bukan diorang tak matang la, diorang matang, tapi it's just diorang tak fikir luar daripada kotak pemikiran. Bak kata Spongebob, imaginasi...hahaha...

So, jangan la sempitkan pemikiran korang. Kartun Spongebob Squarepants bukan kartun yang saja-saja nak suruh korang gelak-gelak macam kanak-kanak yang tak perasan pun yang watak utama tu, Spongebob adalah satu span kuning yang hidup di tempat yang tak sepatutnya dia hidup. So, lepas ni, on TV, tengok kartun Spongebob Squarepants. Tapi, sebelum show tu start, pastikan korang pun dah open kan mind korang luas-luas gak. Dan bila korang dah open, percayalah, korang akan nampak apa yang aku nampak. Bukan kartun Spongebob yang korang tengah tonton tu. Korang sebenarnya tengah menonton kehidupan yang korang sendiri yang sepatutnya korang jalani...^^

Nur Malam

Renungi alam ini rasa kesangsian

Kukini berada di alam yang sunyi

Hanya bertemankan bintang dan bulan

Di malam kelam...

Hembusan angin bayu pasti kan berlalu

Seiring dosa lalu yang membelenguku

Moga semalam jadi pedoman

Dan pengajaran...

Langkah kaki kananku

Menyusuri rumah suci

Bermula episod baru dalam ketulusan hati

Bila hati menghadap Tuhan,

Baru kusedar ada kelemahan

Terasa kerdil berbanding yang Esa

Terharu, terfikir betapa agungnya Tuhan...

Tuhanku,

Aku tidak layak masuk syurgaMu

Namun tak berupaya,

Menghadapi api nerakaMu

Terima taubatku dan ampunkan dosa-dosaku...

Inginku ubah cara hidupku yang lalu,

Menjadi hamba yang diredhai selalu

Tiada palsu wahai Tuhanku, Allah yang satu...

Kuakhiri sujud dengan doa,

Semoga dikabulkan hajat,

Dijauhkan duka lara, kuharap terimalah taubat...

RahmatMu kuharapkan ya Allah...

Aku Seorang Chipmunk

Hahaha...let's continue...apa yang special ada kat aku? Ada lagi dan aku percaya setiap dari kita semua ada satu atau lebih...hargailah dan kenalilah diri sendiri. Yela, kita kenalah kenal siapa diri kita sebelum nak orang kenal kita siapa kan?...


Berbalik pada perkenalan kita, nama aku FRANNY, dan aku salah seorang gadis yang kerdil di muka bumi Tuhan ni, dan berbadan macam budak sekolah rendah kat universiti aku. Aku ada beberapa traits yang special yang membezakan aku daripada orang lain. Kalau penyanyi-penyanyi, tak kisah la local atau luar, apa yang membezakan mereka daripada kita ialah mereka mempunyai suara yang sedap, suara yang merdu dan suara kita, ala biasa-biasa je, tak komersial...hahahaha...Oh ya, bercakap pasal suara, korang pernah bukak siaran radio waktu segmen dedication atau sampaikan salam kat orang?..Kan, bila seseorang pendengar tu call radio tu untuk sampaikan salam atau ucapan kat kawan atau family dia, seluruh Malaysia akan dengar suara dia waktu tu on air. Korang pernah terdengar orang yang call tu suara budak kecik, tapi bila DJ tanya umur, umur dah tua dah, dah berkeluarga dah pun. Selalunya, biasa terjadi kat perempuan la...yela, tak logik la kalau suara itu suara lelaki sebab mengikut sains, suara lelaki memang akan bertukar bila dah dewasa. Aku pun pernah jugak terdengar sekali...hahaha...aku pun gelak, comelnya suara perempuan tu, automatically kita akan cakap macam tu...hahaha...aku suka gelakkan suara orang lain, tapi langsung tak ingat yang aku pun mempunyai jenis suara yang sama...hahahaha...ya, aku punya suara yang pelik...umur aku 20 tapi suara aku bunyi seolah-olah umur aku baru 8 tahun, 7 tahun...kalau kat kelas dulu, cikgu-cikgu dan kawan-kawan aku memang dah kenal aku and masuk universiti ni, aku semakin popular sebab orang lain senang nak ingat aku dengan suara aku. Kawan aku selalu cakap kat aku, kau popular la, percayalah...


Dulu, waktu sekolah menengah, cikgu aku bagi aku gelaran chipmunk, ala binatang squirrel tu...bila cikgu masuk kelas, dia selalu suruh aku baca teks dengan suara yang nyaring, lepas tu dia gelak-gelak...dia cakap suara aku macam chipmunk. Kawan-kawan aku pun cakap macam tu. Ada jugak banyak kisah lucu pasal suara chipmunk aku ni. Ada beberapa yang aku sangat ingat sampai hari ni la...Dulu, waktu sekolah dalam tingkatan 6 atas, aku masuklah satu pertandingan menulis esei dalam BI ni...itu pun cikgu MUET aku yang recommend aku masuk, kalau dia tak recommend, memang aku malas nak masuk, biasalah, budak malas la kan? hahaha...apa aku buat? aku mintak tolong kakak aku, seorang cikgu MUET jugak tulis esei aku separuh. Separuh lagi, idea aku. Lepas hantar karya, result pun keluar. Alhamdulillah, aku menang tempat pertama. Walaupun bukan 100% hasil karya aku, aku tetap berbangga jugak...hahahaha...oh ya, waktu result tu keluar, pihak yang menguruskan hadiah pertandingan tu call cell phone aku la. Aku pun, dengan penuh nervous dan berdebar-debarnya angkat la panggilan dia. Aku pun cakap hello...hello la seperti biasa. Dia pun cakap, hello, err, boleh saya bercakap dengan orang yang bernama FRANNY? Aku pun jawab la ow FRANNY bercakap. Dengan tak semena-mena dia doubt kat aku, dia tanya aku balik adik, jangan la main-main. Boleh pass telefon ni kat FRANNY tak? aku pun terdiam, aku pun cakap lagi, memang betul la saya, FRANNY yang cakap ni! Dia masih tak percaya kat aku, betul ke ni? Tak cayalah! mana kakak adik mana? saya nak cakap dengan kakak...ya, sabar je la...kenervousan aku tadi dah hilang dah, result belum tau lagi, boleh nak bertengkar dengar pengurus tu dulu...aku pun cakap lagi, memang saya la yang bercakap ni... Aku pun penat dah, dia pun penat...lalu dia pun cakap tak apa lah dik. Just nak bagitau yang FRANNY memenangi pertandingan menulis esei. Tolong bagitau dia ek. Dia masih gak tak percaya. Aku pun cakap ok je la. Aku pun bagi dia semua details yang dia nak. Bila aku ceritakan kat kakak aku, kakak aku gelakkan aku...Para pemenang pertandingan tu dikehendaki datang ke satu tempat untuk menerima hadiah. Aku pun datang dan orang yang ambil aku dari terminal bas tu adalah orang yang call aku sebelum tu...sedihnya, dia masih tak percaya dengan aku. Sepanjang perjalanan ke hotel, dia asyik bagitau aku ngan kakak aku yang dia langsung tak percaya. Dia cakap suara macam budak kecik! berulang-ulang. Hurmmm...kakak aku gelak je. Aku...sabar je la...


Ni, satu kisah lagi...lepas SPM, aku terpilih untuk masuk PLKN. Hurmmm, bila dapat tahu yang aku terpilih, aku nangis...wuuu...tak best pergi jauh-jauh ni. Orang cakap PLKN ni macam tentera. Bila aku scan physical aku ni, layak ke, badan kecik macam ni masuk tentera? Aduuh...aku waktu tu stress, dan stress. Lepas tu family aku pun pujuk la aku untuk masuk. Mereka cakap, 3 bulan je, bukan lama pun, lagipun kalau aku tak pergi waktu tu, aku kena pergi kemudian nanti. Kena pergi jugak. Wajib...aku pun setuju tak setuju, pergi jugak la...3 bulan aku kat PLKN, penat giler...tidur selalu tak cukup...Seperti biasa, aku memamg senang nak cari kawan baru. Aku polpular waktu PLKN sebab suara aku. Cikgu-cikgu kat sana selalu usik aku. Mereka selalu ajuk apa yang aku cakap...aku kat sana dikira aktif jugak la sebab aku ada jawatan sebagai ketua wirawati Islam...selama ni suara aku kena gelak oleh sekumpulan manusia yang kecil je, kawan aku, cikgu aku...sehinggalah pada suatu petang yang tenang, semua pelajar Islam, lelaki ngan perempuan dikehendaki berbaris sebelum menunaikan solat Maghrib. Aku, dengan baju kurung aku pun ikut berbaris kat belakang. Ustaz kami, seorang bekas tentera datang untuk membuat pemeriksaan petang tu. Muka dia, garang!...takutnya!...kami semua berbaris dalam keadaan senang diri. Semua tersusun rapi. Nak pergi solat pun kena berkawad lagi!...Ustaz tu pun buat sedikit ucapan. Dia pun tanya siapa yang selalu bagi command kat kami sebelum pergi solat. Kawan aku jawab la yang lelaki ada seorang yang bagi command, perempuan pun ada. Ustaz tu pun tanya, perempuan tu siapa? Kawan aku pun angkat tangan la, ustaz pun tanya dia samada dia ketua wirawati Islam ke? Dia pun geleng...Ustaz tu tanya lagi, siapa ketua wirawati Islam? Aku pun angkat tangan. Dengan tiba-tibanya, entah angin datang dari mana, Ustaz tu dengan selambanya cakap awak, datang depan, bagi command! bial aku dengar permintaan dia, terbeliak mata aku. Ya Allah...bagaimana aku nak menghadapi dugaan ini? Aku tergaru-garu kepala, tapi aku tak boleh nak kata tak nak. Tak berani la, dengan ustaz garang tu...kawan-kawan yang kenal sangat ngan aku hanya mampu tersenyum je kat aku sebab mereka tau apa yang akan bakal terjadi...


Aku pun keluar dari baris aku dan berjalan ke hadapan. Ustaz tu pun ke belakang. Aku pun menghadap dua barisan yang sangat kemas, wirawati dengan wira yang tengah dalam keadaan sedia. Aku dikehendaki bagi command untuk keluar baris tapi sebelum tu aku kena la bagi command senang diri dahulu. Aku pun tarik nafas dan lontarkan suara aku dengan sepenuh hati...BARIS!!! BARIS SENANG DIRI!!!.....dengan tak semena-mena, kedua-dua barisan yang cantik dan kemas di depan aku tiba-tiba berterabur. Semua kawan-kawan aku berguling-guling gelak bila dengar suara aku. Mereka yang dalam keadan sedia tadi dah keluar baris sebelum aku bagu command yang seterusnya sebab sibuk gelak. Aku pun cakap dalam hati, aku dah agak dah...aku pun mampu tersenyum je, lihat mereka gelak. Aku toleh ke belakang, cari Ustaz, takut dia marahkan aku sebab tak bagi command dengan serius. Rupa-rupanya, ustaz pun gelak sekali. Kebetulan tempat kami berbaris berhampiran dengan cafe. Cikgu-cikgu, kawan-kawan non-muslim termasuk pekerja-pekerja kat sana pun gelak selepas dengar command daripada aku...hurmmm...itu la first time aku kena gelak oleh sekumpulan manusia yang besar. Sejak hari tu, aku pun jadi popular sewaktu PLKN...

Introducing me...FRANNY...

Nama aku Franny, untuk kali keduanya, bukan nama sebenar...hehehe...tahun ni, 2012, umur aku dah masuk 12 dah, eh, eh...salah taip lak, bukan 12 la, 21...hehehe...pelik ek? Most of us tak nak jadi tua, tak mengaku tua...bagi aku la, sebelum masuk U ni, tak ada seorang yang panggil aku kakak/akak, tapi bila dah masuk U ni tiba-tiba pulak orang panggil dengan nama panggilan macam tu. Pernah la terjadi recently, lagi fresh dalam kepala otak aku ni...semasa aku dengan kawan pergi ke pavilion nak makan, tengah syok berbual, tiba-tiba ada la suatu suara ni panggil dari belakang, akak! akak!...aku ngan kawan aku tak toleh la. Entahlah, kami automatically macam tak nak bagi respond. Dalam hati masing-masing tertanya-tanya, ei, dye panggil aku ke?...hahaha...tua sangat ke aku ni?...aaa, sebab tu la kami tak nak toleh, padahal nampak sebaya je pun...


Hurmmm....tak apela, lantak diorang la nak panggil apa, tapi honestly, kalau lelaki yang panggil aku kakak, malu owww...hahaha...pernah la jugak terjadi sekali, sampaikan lelaki tu lari kejar dari belakang, desperate nak tanya petang tu ada kelas Matematik atau tak. Dah dia panggil aku kakak? siapa nak toleh kan?, padahal beza umur tak sampai setahun pun, lebih kurang sebaya...first tu, aku langsung tak layan or toleh, tak nak mengaku yang dia tengah panggil aku...hahaha...tapi, disebabkan adanya rasa respect, aku pun toleh jugak la, terkejut jugak bila dapat tau lelaki yang panggil aku 'kakak' tu lelaki yang aku minat...fuhhh...merah padam muka! Nak tak nak, kena jawab jugak la soalan dia...hahaha...


Eh, nak introduce diri sebenarya tadi...aku ni walaupun dah umur besar, sesetengah geng aku selalu cakap aku ni bukan macam orang besar...hahaha...sebabnya aku ni rendah je, 159cm je, berat 42kg, sekarang, asyik makan tidur, makan tidur, dah mencapai 45kg, berat je bertambah, tinggi, tak jugak bertambah tingginya...aku ni bukan la jugak budak baik, nakal tu ada la sikit, hehehe...hobi aku pulak, aku suka melukis, baca buku, bersiar-siar, main ngan kucing, tangkap rama-rama...hahaha...pun termasuk jugak...yela, cuma orang yang kenal aku je tau aku ni macam mana orangnya...


Masuk universiti, aku ambik course sains tapi minat aku kat arts, fine arts...tangan kiri pegang test tube, tangan kanan pegang berus cat air. Boleh dikatakan aku ni mempunyai kebolehan untuk menggunakan kedua-dua belah otak. Anugerah.......itu yang menjadikan aku berbeza daripada orang lain. Aku pun tak tau macam mana aku tau lukis. Aku suka lukis kartun/anime, dan pemandangan. Kebanyakan lukisan yang aku buat hasil ilham aku sendiri. Aku jarang tiru or lukis sesuatu yang dah sedia ada...hahaha, teringat pulak kisah aku waktu sekolah menengah dulu...pada suatu hari yang cerah tu, kelas aku ada subjek pendidikan seni. Memang hari yang aku tunggu-tunggu la sebab yela, aku minat lukis...Hari tu, cikgu seni aku ajar kteorang lukis potret. Dia sediakan senaskhah surat khabar untuk setiap orang dan lukis gambar manusia yang ada lam surat khabar tu. Aku pun pilih la sorang gambar perempuan ni. Tanpa melengahkan masa, aku pun start lukis. Kawan-kawan di sekeliling aku semua dah merungut sebab tak tau macam mana nak lukis. Ada jugak a few yang langsung tak nak peduli.  Aku waktu tu dah dalam dunia aku sendiri and pap! aku siap lukis tepat pada masanya. Cikgu aku pun kumpul lukisan kteorang and tengok lukisan kte orang. And, aku tak sangka pulak lukisan aku mendapat pujian. Dia pergi ke meja aku dan tanya kat aku, boleh tunjuk gambar sape yang awak lukis ni? Aku pun bukak la gambar perempuan yang aku tiru tadi dan tunjuk kat cikgu aku. Waktu cikgu aku tengok and compare lukisan aku ngan gambar sebenar tu, kening dia berkerut-kerut. Dia pun cakap kat aku, lukisan yang awak lukis ni langsung tak sama ngan gambar sebenar. Betul ke gambar ni yang awak tiru? Aku pun angguk banyak kali. Cikgu aku pun sambung lagi, habis tu, kenapa perempuan yang awak lukis lagi cantik daripada perempuan sebenar dalam gambar ni? Aku terkejut bila dengar cikgu aku cakap macam tu, aku tak tau nak jawab apa, so aku senyum je...hehehe...cikgu pun mintak lukisan aku dan mintak kebenaran aku untuk simpan lukisan aku tu untuk dijadikan koleksi sekolah. Semenjak hari tu, banyak lukisan aku yang dijadikan koleksi kat sekolah...sebab tu la aku tak pandai lukis semula lukisan yang sedia ada terutamanya yang berbentuk absrak sangat...hahaha...itu salah satu kebolehan yang special ada kat aku...sebenarnya, ada lagi yang lain, tapi aku dah penat dah taip ni...ada masa, aku akan sambung balik...enjoy your days! ^^

Who am I?...

KISAH SEORANG GADIS BERNAMA Franny....


Hello...Helo...hehehe...

Ni first time kte blogging...eh, tak jugak la...sebenarnya banyak kali dah. Tak tau nak tulis pasal ape...nak tulis pasal orang lain takut dikatakan suka jaga tepi kain orang, nak cakap pasal bussiness kte tak ade bussiness...last-last dapat idea, baik cerita pasal diri sendiri...hidup ni...hehehe...apa salahnya kan...

Ala, tak kisah la siapa yang nak baca, yang penting kte puas hati coz kadang-kadang tujuan utama orang blogging nak release tension and I am one of them...

Apa la sangat yang ada dalam hidup ni?...itu yang kte selalu fikir...sungguh negatif pemikiran korang ni...hidup kte ni lau nak diamati betul-betul, bermula dari the first second we were born till now, try korang recall balik perjalanan hidup korang, indah ape!? hahaha...yela, orang dah ajar kte untuk appreciate this life kan? Well, however, banyak la dugaannya jugak. Betul la pepatah melayu cakap, hidup ni umpama roda. Kadang-kadang kita di atas, kadang-kadang kita di bawah, ala, seumpama la dengan konsep yin and yang...

Siapa cakap hidup ni senang? Hidup ni susah tau...life is not as easy as ABC, even ABC pun kte susah nak hafal waktu masuk sekolah tadika dulu...nak give up sekolah je rasa sebab tertekan hafal ABC...belum lagi DEFGHIJK....dan seterusnya tu...haa...betul...hidup ni susah...sebabnya, kte adalah manusia, yang punya kelemahan dari banyak sudut. Oleh itu, tak kisah la macam mana kesusahan yang korang hadapi, hutang keliling pinggang ke, family berpecah-belah or berderai ke, exam asyik-asyik fail, tertekan ngan member ke, or ape-ape je la! kte kena teruskan hidup ni...kalau kita cakap kita tak perfect, masih ada masa untuk perbaiki...yang penting, jangan putus asa dan yang paling penting, INGATLAH TUHAN...!

Tu intro je tu...

So, let me introduce myself, my name's FRANNY, not a real name...I'm still studying...in local university. My life isn't that lucky or colorful like you guys in certain ways...There's a lot to share so that we will be able to learn from others' mistakes...ya, to improve ourselves...well then, enjoy your days! ^^